[GIVEAWAY] TIME MERCHANDISE ~ Entries and Poll: Voting Deadline – 22nd September
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I’m from the Philippines. I’m already 26 years old and a Cassie for 5 years. I am lucky enough to get to know them even before the lawsuit. I’m working as a public school teacher and I believe that I’m the only Cassie here in my place, but little by little I am introducing them to my students.
I came to know there when I stumbled upon Arirang on tv. They were being interviewed since Mirotic had been released and I got really curious since korean dramas are on the rise that time and a korean band was really knew… Their charms captivated me and i thought Yoochun had a weird hairstyle but he managed to capture my heart so he’s now my one and only bias… I love the other four of course but Yoochun will always hold a very special place in my heart.
The lawsuit broke my heart really bad since it happened days before my birthday… I can remember that it was the saddest birthday I had… But just like every Cassie… I moved on and continued and still continue to support them as 3 or 2 or 5.
I have this funny story… I just made my test paper for the periodical exam and my principal checking it… He then asked me… Ms. AJ.. Who are Jaejoong, Yunho… And these weird names…? Are they Korean…? And guess what I answered… i said one of them is my husband and the four of them are my brothers-in-law. He looked at me as if I grew ten heads and said… But Ms. AJ… You’re still single… And I said… Huh… Not really haha….
So there goes my fic… I really want to have that watch but if someone deserves it more than I do, I be happy to accept the winner… At least I got to share my story to other Cassies and Bigeast…
It was in 2009. I was a young despressive girl. One Day, while I was looking for a song that my friend told me to listen, I found Wasurenaide. I listened classical music but when I discovered this song, I listened it every time, fifty times a day. I didn’t know who was Dong Bang Shin Ki, their voices were feeling me chills, an inexplicable harmony enter the five boys that make my sadness disappeared… So, I decided to learn more about them, listen others song, and more I discovered them, more I could not live without… When I learnt about their separation, I knew, I know and I will know one day they returned as five, so I wrote tirelessly “Always Keep The Faith” on paper like on my heart. Since this day, I found again joy in life, I listen them every day and I share my love to them with others persons, hope they can save others, like they did to me.
I have been liking Tohoshinki ever since I heard their “Asu Wa Kuru Kara” being used as the 17th Ending Theme Song of famous anime “One Piece”.
The spark was actually Junsu’s amazing voice that could really arouse the emotions the song is conveying within me. I really really love his voice. He was the very first singer who I didn’t know him by neither his name nor looks, but solely by his voice alone.
Yes, I didn’t know he was called Junsu back then. I didn’t know how he looked back then. I only know how amazing his voice was, how his angelic voice could touch me.
Then, together with the encouraging lyrics of the song such as:
“When the rain is pouring, I’ll be your umbrella.
When the wind is blowing, I’ll be your wall.
It doesn’t matter how deep the evening darkness is,
Because tomorrow will definitely come…”
Those lyrics were really really encouraging, and they totally came at the right time. Because back then, I was extremely depressed with myself for reasons such as lousy academics and other personal reasons that I can’t really share(sorry).
Hence, with both Junsu’s sweet voice and these lyrics of faith and strength, “Asu Wa Kuru Kara” became the song that made me like Tohoshinki.
Nonetheless, back then, I only like Tohoshinki. I didn’t really follow their news, didn’t deliberately find out what variety shows they attend, check out what dramas they act in or which album/single are they doing. I will just let coincidences do the job, meaning to say I will only watch them perform or listen to their songs when they occur by chance.
However, in the year 2012, my passion for Tohoshinki exploded out of a sudden.
2012 was the suckiest year of my life so far, because many terrible incidents happened to me.
One of those incidents was me being outcasted by 200++ people in my college due to a misunderstanding. Life then was horrible. Everywhere I go in school, I could hear whispers behind my back or stares from my surroundings. It was so scary to a point that I don’t even know if there were really people talking behind my back or is it just me being oversensitive. Till now, I still don’t know.
Another incident was the heartless betrayal by a close friend of mine. She was really cruel to me back then. In front of me, she treats me like a good friend who was always showing me care and concern. But behind my back, she gossips and spread false rumours about me using the ‘info’ I confided into her.
And what do you know, just when you thought the worst has happened, you were wrong. When these two incidents occurred at the SAME period, I found out why: She was the one who caused the misunderstanding. She was the one who caused me to be outcasted.
How horrible was Fate to do all these to me at the SAME time. How cruel could Life be?
These were what runs around in my head every single day, not to forget tears every night too.
Besides these two incidents, there were two more actually, causinf my college life last year to be so horrendous that I wanted to transfer school because I couldn’t stand all these. I wanted to start anew in another school.
Indeed, I had friends and family around me who believe in me, who support me, who were there for me.
However, who can I still trust? I lost faith and trust in EVERYONE, like really. I was afraid that I’m gonna get betraed again.
Just when I thought my life was never gonna be the same again, someone appeared in my life once again.
Yup, it was Tohoshinki who accompanied me through every single day.
Everyday, I listen to their songs no matter where I am or what I am doing.
I listen to their songs when I travel to school.
I listen to their songs when I was having breaks in school.
I listen to their songs when I travel back home.
I listen to their songs whenever I’m out so that they could calm my mind and soothe my soul, preventing me from realising(or overthink) that people around me are talking about me.
I also listen to their songs when I bathe.
I also listen to their songs when I study at home.
I also listen to their songs before I sleep.
I listen to their songs almost every minute at home to prevent myself from thinking about those sucky incidents and thus, prevent me from crying.
It was these that made me fell in love with Tohoshinki, the one who accompanied me through every single day and moment of my down period.
Even though they were not physically there, their songs and lyrics made me felt that they were there with me all the time.
Lastly, besides their angelic voices and encouraging songs that helped me live through 2012, the thing that made me love Tohoshinki so much was their strong characters.
Ever since he left SM as a member of JYJ, Junsu was banned from appearing on Korean TVs. It’s been 3-4 years since I last saw him on TV, and I really missed seeing his cuteness and charisma on stage. I also learnt about the prank a Korean broadcasting station did to him a few years back, whereby they used him to promote their festival, only to embarrass him in front of millions of audience by refusing him TV coverage when he already went up on stage. Junsu wanted to cry back then, but he fought back his tears and comforted us instead. He was so strong and considerate, that it made me cry to see the one being hurt the most showing the most care. Till now, Junsu still fights on. Even if he cannot appear on Korean TVs, he seek other ways to meet his fans. Even if he got pranked or used countless times, he persist on. Such determination and strength, I admire Junsu for that.
Besides Junsu, I also like Yunho who is still in Tohoshinki. Yunho, being the leader, was criticised severely by millions worldwide. People said he was a failed leader who cannot keep his team, without knowing that he already did a splendid job for a 23 year old who debuted when he was 18. People said he was a traitor who didn’t support his fellow members in leaving SM, without knowing that Tohoshinki was Yunho’s life and that he wanted to protect it. People said he was money-oriented as the reason for him not leaving SM with the three(JYJ), without knowing that Yunho always ensures he shares his earnings equally with his members even if he was the only one who did the job. Because of all these criticism, a 23 year-old Yunho suffered from depression for 1.5 years and took 6 months to pick himself up again. This was an incredible and amazing feat because he was so young back then and faced tonnes of stress. This made me thought that:”If Yunho could stand strong even with millions crticising and misunderstanding him, why can’t I?”
With these, Tohoshinki not only supported me with their songs, but also inspired me with their tough characters.
Now, I became extremely passionate about Tohoshinki. I follow all their news, had all their albums and singles, and found out all their schedules. I dare to say that, even though my passion only grew this strong since 2012, I’m a devoted Cassiopiea who loves and believes in Tohoshinki strongly.
Many said I was a crazy fangirl.
But I dare to say I’m not.
All I wanted to do, was to show support to these people who have been supporting me through my life.
Just like how I love and support my friends and family who are always been there for me, I love Tohoshinki and will support them even if they retire.
“Always Keep the Faith”, fellow Cassies!
Well, i knew of DBSK’s existence in december 2009, when a friend of mine show me Mirotic MV and i felt in love instantly with this music even not liking pop in general. LOL
I was still into jrock, so i didn’t searched for more musics. I started to search more about them in april 2010 i guess. Were a little hard to like them.
Yes, i listened to hug, triangle, ‘o’, and i was with a wtf face and saying to myself ( especially when i watched balloons for the first time) ‘what the heck is this, am i listen to dbsk that sang mirotic?????’
With a bit of persistence, i was starting to like their style and daily giving more and more all my attention and love to them.
When i realised, i was ‘living for’ TVXQ and JYJ. LOL
I NEVER ever loved a group/band as i love them. Never cried, laughed, smiled, got mad or even got excited as i do now.
Last year, 1/5 of my dream came true. I went to Junsu’s show in Brazil.
I was one of translators of a jyj fanbase, and every news that was talking about junsu’s solo concert i asked to myself ‘Will i be able to see a solo concert of him….?’. And one day we received a email of a agence saying ‘we gonna hold junsu’s show’.
When i read i was like ‘is this guy joking with my heart or….?’ and when i less expected, after many fail fanprojects, they confirmed ‘Junsu’s solo is confirmed!’. I started to cry, holding my will of scream like a crazy at midnight LOL
Although the place was not the best and a few ppl went to (since they confirmed only 1 mouth before and unfortunatelly dbsk isn’t famous as super junior or any other group) was the best show of my life.
I was REALLY close to them, like… 2 meters away.
When he appeared on stage i could’t stop screaming ‘HE IS REALL. O-M-F-G WHAT IS THIS. IS THIS REAL O-M-G’
I saw every drop of sweat falling off of his face, stared at every single curve of his /sexy/ body.
He made eye contact to me twice. My heart was to pull out of my body.
And… i don’t need to say that the day after i cried since when i woke up till i sleep, right? LOL
I would do everything that i did. Waited for 18h on queue, under a hot sun…. everything.
I didn’t see tvxq nor jyj, but i hope i do. I really need to see them.
TVXQ entered in my life in 2008. I was 16. At that time I was totally captured by Japanese music, so I didn’t feel the need to listen other bands. At that time I didn’t know nothing about Korean music\drama\culture…
I loved (and love) Japanese music; it helped me and I limited myself to it.
But, luckily I’ve to say, my little sister watched Korean dramas and “forced” me to watch one of them with her. From that moment I discovered of liking also the Korean world.
Thinking at it now, on 2013, maybe, before DBSK, I’ve to thank her.
However…One day I was lazily searching for some Korean songs on Youtube. I’ve only watched that drama with my sister and then I wanted to listen some songs.
And, then, I saw Jaejoong. I was scrollling the bar and, among the other videos, I saw Jaejoong’s face.
I thought: “I know him”.
And then I remembered. 2 years before I’ve saw his photos in Internet and I was really mesmerized by his features.
When I clicked to watch the video, I, surely, didn’t expect to find myself, after some minutes, crying. I was living a very bad moment at that time and they helped me for the first time.
The song was “Why did I fall in love with you?”.
I remember of having re-played the song again and again…I just wanted to listen their voices repeatedly. I felt in love with their voices. I had never heard before such feeling, listening to a song. There was this thing that I felt in my stomach and in my throat…I couldn’t speak, but only listen and watch them, raptured by their melody, crying.
That was how I, unexpectedly, have known them.
I quickly realized that they were special, that I would have loved them for a long time.
I started listening their songs, falling in love with each of them. I started finding informations about the band, reading the translations of their songs…watching their interviews…seeing how amazing my new second family was: I was proud being a Cassiopeia.
When I’ve know them better, my first thought was: “I’m gonna love DBSK for all my life”
At that time…I really thought that it was the maximum. I really believed that my love for them was to the full.
How wrong I was.
My depression started. It was more strong then my love for them. For several months, maybe one year, I closed myself to all, also to the band that I’ve started to love that much.
After that time, I don’t know why, but I took my MP3 and played that same song: “Why did I fall in love with you?”. I was on the street. I remember of having stop myself from walk, crying, the same emotions flowing again. I closed my eyes and for, the first time after long time, I felt happy. Oh, so really happy that I could explode. I was crying, but I felt so terribly happy.
I asked myself why. Why have I stopped listening DBSK? They make me feel so good, so why?
Also now, I can’t find a reply.
By then, I find them again and I’ve never more let go them.
My depression was always there, yeah. And it was slowly getting worse.
I don’t commit a mistake by saying that DBSK are one of the two reasons why…I’ve done nothing bad to myself…
They’ve saved me. They’re saving me. They…make me survive. They have raised me when I fell; made me see the light, when I could see only darkness…They made me see the good in this world.
I don’t know how much I owe to our boys. Their voices, their songs, their words, their love, their smiles, have always given me strength. Their whole being was (and is) for me source of strength.
It was then…when I realized this…that my love for them increased. I didn’t know that it could become more great, but it did.
I want to say them: “Thank you” because I owe them my smiles…I owe them my laughs…I owe them my strength…I owe them my tears… And no, it’s not bad. All of them help me to feel myself alive.
There are many ways to save a person: when I was 8 years old, I was saved by a doctor; but I was also saved countless times by DBSK.
That doctor cured my heart; they heal my mind.
I’m sure that they help a lots of Cassies with their love…
They have become very special to me. Also if they don’t know me, also if probably I’ll never see them, I feel myself so close to our boys…so close to you Cassies…Because we share the same love, the same thoughts, the same hope…We went and go through happiness and suffering together.
Jaejoong, Changmin, Yunho, Junsu, Yoochun, Cassiopeia, Thank you. I love you and I’ll love you forever.
…Maybe I might not have had to share this with anyone. Here there are things that I’ve told to nobody. I don’t know why I wanted to share this. But I feel it. I trust my family.
…Well…I’ve not talked about them…I talked about how much they help me and how much I need them. I’m sorry if this wasn’t what I should write. It came out…and now I feel a lot better…
I subscribe to SMent Youtube channel because im an ELF but its just happened that i see in my email a new uploaded MV by this group TVXQ I think it was around January 2011 promotion of Keep Your head down, i was super amaze then the quality of the voice and the dance moves i thought they are new group and i was wondering why they are only 2 member i was attracted to the music because i think it has a big impact why the music sounds so powerful so i search many things about TVXQ that is when i read that they are originally debuted as 5 member group in year 2003, i was totaly amazed by the achievement that they had made from their debut till now and they are called as King of Hallyu, i was chatting with my ELF friends asking about TVXQ but they also dont know it, thanks to the internet i watch almost all of their MV’s and downloaded most of their concerts,I was totally amazed how this 5 guys had an amazing voice and unique style i love all their acapella songs and Live perfomance, so now i was totally sad why they have to separate and SM Ents is preventing TVXQ to meet JYJ, i hope someday there will be a time where they can meet not just a former band members but also as friends i always say that Always Keep the faith but i think reality cheek there is less probabilty that this 5 guys will be on the same group again but im still always keeping the faith on them that someday this 5 guys will see each other again and be friends forever. Im also a YunJae shipper a super ultimate.. i was totally addicted to them reading fanfics every day about YunJae and TVXQ i hope they are true. I always got so excited evertime i watch videos of them and YunJae evidence anyways i think i blabber too much now anyways Always Keep the faith on TVXQ/JYJ and Always keep the faith that YunJae is real <3
Prologue – The Past
It all began shortly around my 27th birthday in 2012 (Yes, I am a
noona/unnie fan, don’t judge me), and a highschool mate that I hadn’t
met in ages shared a video on my news feed. The caption was “Best
Dance MV ever”. So I clicked. I watched. I was intrigued. I had little
to no exposure to KPop before this, and to me this was a group of
Asian guys dancing to what I considered -awesome choreography-. As I
continued to watch, I started noticing their chests… I admit I have
a chest fetish, but I thought the only ones that fit my criteria were
in anime… Yunho became my first bias because of his dance in the
Mirotic MV. And the chest line.
There in began my search for more videos by this group. “Was the group
name Mirotic?” (Boy, do I laugh at myself now for being a complete
newb about them back then). I found videos and videos and searched for
English subs – I found myself enjoying their personalities first, not
just their music, their dance, their ability to perform on stage. I
blame watching the King’s Parody. (My husband thought I was crazy when
I laughed out loud till I shed tears) And then I found the Come To
Play videos. I had already started to pick out Jaejoong’s voice from
listening to the various music videos – thinking ‘I love his singing’.
Come To Play just solidified it for me. Bias officially changed to
Hero Kim Jaejoong.
I won’t get into the accidental discovery of my two biases in a couple
relationship and into ‘shipping’, as I slowly learned the term to be.
That, and fanfiction, omg I love fanfiction. Ahem. Instead let me
share three stories of how DBSK has affected my life, despite having
never met them and only having been a fan for… a year and half now.
Chapter 1 – Grief
It was August of 2012 I went back to my home country for a visit. To
see family and friends. While I was there, I learnt that one of my
cousins was in the hospital for a fever that was persisting. I visited
her twice during my stay. When I went back, it’s safe to say I never
thought I’d never see her again.
It was sudden, it was unexpected. We thought it was a cold, a fever,
something that would go away. but it didn’t. And then, it took her
from us after less than 2 months since her first symptoms. She was
only 2 years older than me. I was back in Vegas when I got the news
via email. A short ‘She didn’t make it’ jolted my world. But life goes
on. So I went to work, and tried to resume normalcy.
I listen to DBSK songs on my drive to work. And I distinctly recall
crying to Keep Your Head Down whenever Changmin sang ‘Wae!’ But I made
it to work, and distracted myself by sharing my grief with a coworker,
and letting her let me lure her into the fandom by showing her video
after video of DBSK. She’s not a full fledged Cassie yet, but I had
her practically drooling at Before You Go. XD
That day, I was so thankful to have had DBSK to distract me. Their
laughs, their friendship, and the shipping videos I gorged on, helped
me smile on that hard day. I wish I had gotten the chance to show my
cousin my new found hobby.
I had just gotten back into recording covers (Thanks to DBSK as well),
and I made this one for her. For my family. Not a DBSK song, but I was
pondering singing Holding Back The Tears… But besides the Japanese,
I’d have trouble singing it while holding back my own tears.
Here is the Facebook video link:
Chapter 2 – Friendship
Since getting to know of DBSK, I have met several Cassies that I
sincerely call friends. Not just someone that I ‘friend’ on facebook.
But someone I’d talk to. That I knew we had stuff in common. One I
share a birthdate with. As in, exact same date of birth, down to the
year. Another I consider my spazz partner in all things DBSK. And
finally, the first one, a younger fan with a generous heart, who
showed me the ropes in the fandom and answered my ‘silly’ questions.
Not to mention helped me start my own collection of DBSK goodies
These are people that DBSK has brought together. And I cherish the
strength we share with each other to keep the faith, despite starting
out as virtual strangers.
Chapter 3 – Family
The most recent chapter in my life’s story with DBSK involves the
latest addition to my family – the real one, not the extended Cassie
one :p I have been blessed with a beautiful baby girl and after much
debate with the husband, we named her Mia. My original criteria for
name was… ‘Can her first and middle name start with J’s please!’ Of
course, because my husband does know of my *cough* obsession with a
certain Asian idol, that didn’t fly. I tried compromising.. ‘One J?’ I
was SO CLOSE to getting her named Jaena or Jayna. Yeah, didn’t happen.
As we continued looking for names, I found Mia. It meant “Mine”. And
this was right around Jaejoong’s album release… so… yeah….
I received awesome gifts from my Cassie friends A Hello Kitty
Elephant soft toy! Catch Me album! A onesie that says “I love watching
KDrama with my mommy”. Totally going to try to raise her as a Cassie -
I have a Tohoshinki/DBSK classical/instrumental/musicbox playlist of
songs for her ^_^ And when she’s old enough to help, she’s going to
get me some autographs – Idols love the kids, right?! /bricked/
The most hilarious conversation I had with a fellow Cassie about Mia
was one where I spazzed about the possibility of my Mia marrying the
child of my biases, making them my in-laws… /delusional/ Also, I did
mention Jaejoong was my bias, right? I’m going to leave this at that
Epilogue – The Future
To wrap it up, I can’t wait to be able to attend a DBSK concert with
my Cassie friends and daughter. Hopefully by then they’ll be five
again. Until then, we patiently wait. And save money for the plan to
go to Korea for their reunion concert. Because, though I’ve never been
to one, and live on the other side of the world from Korea, that is
one concert I would hate to miss.
Till our gods rise again. Always Keep The Faith. Hope To The End.
Youngwoong Jaejoong hwaiting!
Uknow Yunho hwaiting!
Micky Yoochun hwaiting!
Choikang Changmin hwaiting!
Xiah Junsu hwaiting ^_^
Love them always,
I can clearly bear in mind that I was an ELF before I met DBSK. I was a sixth grade student back then, there’s nothing running in my head but Super Junior, only Super Junior, always Super Junior. Fans here (not all, just few immature fans) tend to compare Super Junior to DongBangShinKi, they’ve been really mean to the extent that they’ll slap right to our faces that DBSK is greater and much more popular than Super Junior. Being the super duper ultra protective fan that I am back then, I was really pissed off. I have no idea of DBSK, the members’ names and faces, their songs, achievements, I was totally clueless since I have settled my mind to the boys of Super Junior…and before I got the chance to get to know DBSK, I started hating them (all thanks to those ridiculous fans).Yes, I was one of those bitter, mean, and very biased fans.
I was like 13 or 14 years old when one time, my big sister got home with something I didn’t expect, She’s got an mp3 of KYHD in her player (it was that time that TVXQ had a comeback after 2 years) and she insists that I should try listening to it, I agreed. Being a really bitter fan, I hated it (oh my gosh please don’t kill me!) I thought that Yunho’s rapping skills are weird, Changmin’s high notes are annoying, and the whole music thing is a joke (now, please calm down >< I’m just trying to be honest…). The more I got annoyed by them, the more my sister teased me (take note: I still didn’t know who’s who in DBSK that time). Until one day, she got home with another TVXQ song which I got no intention listening to, she insisted again, saying that this may change my views of DBSK, and it did. Cue opening of ‘why did I end up falling in love with you’. In the mere three minutes and twenty one seconds of the song, I was dumbfounded, having no ability to spurt out some harsh comments, because the song itself is perfection, the melody, and the voices, just… perfect. That’s when I realized, I did fall in love with DBSK that time, and I know that that love will be staying in me forever….
So yeah, I totally forgot about Super Junior, I hurriedly searched DBSK in the internet and heck, I remember cursing that time when I finally got the chance to look at their faces—Even their faces are perfect!!! First impressions (1) They are PERFECT (2) Changmin doesn’t look like a Korean but I love him still (3) Jaejoong is much more beautiful than me (4) Junsu kinda remind me of a cute animal, a dolphin perhaps (5) I certainly guessed that Yunho is the leader, which is correct. (6) Yoochun looks rich XD. I got really hooked with their songs, and their personality. I started gathering information connected to them, watched all those shows they’ve filmed, music videos ( I literally screamed my lungs out while watching MIROTIC mv),downloading songs, pictures, etc. I just can’t get enough of them. My mind was now nothing but DBSK, only DBSK, always DBSK.
I gradually discovered their separation; I was affected of course though I was not there when it happened. The saddest fact that hitted me was that I wasn’t able to support them when they were five, I was not there when they cried, I was not there when they’re happy, I was not there when they separated, I was not there to love them because I was so busy hating them back then, not giving myself a chance to know them, to support them, to love them. “There’s nothing I can do…I’m just too late” I told myself that nothing will be helped now, I will love them as five, regardless if they’re two or three, it would always be DONGBANGSHINKI FIVE in my heart. My ELF soul was gone by now, it was replaced by my burning Cassiopeia soul and no matter what happened I would continue to keep it burning inside me.
Since I became an ultimate Cassiopeia, my life has changed, I’ve never been so obsessed with something, I’m not that type of person who screams so loudly to little things, but when I entered this fandom, I become crazy about them! Heck, just a wink can make me go extreme by myself! My mom said I look like I have lost my mind—SO WHAT? I’M MORE THAN HAPPY TO BE CRAZY FOR THEM, ONLY THEM. But seriously, I’m living my life contentedly and happy. DBSK can make me happy, they can make me cry, laugh, scream and go wild and I love it.
Also, I seriously become focus about my studies! I, too, can’t believe it myself; I have actually made my grades a lot higher, maybe because there’s this nagging voice inside my mind saying “you pass this, you’ll get see them” or “you fail this, there’s no more DBSK for you”. It may seem weird but those naggings actually work! And please take note: no one has ever made me actually serious about my studies, only those boys, only DBSK.
I know some of fans can relate to this, but DBSK also made me save up money. You know how expensive albums or dbsk goodies and in my case, I cannot just ask my parents to give me a lot of money so there would be a lot of saving to do. I experienced starving for a month! I was saving up for an album, I was so eager to have it that I had let myself have only one meal a day, but you know…it was worth it, I never complained being hungry that whole month, I was actually determined to buy that thing that I would gradually forget that I’m hungry. When I received the album, it was a huge relief on me, (and of course a loud fan girl scream) OH MY GOSH THAT WAS AN ACHIEVEMENT ON MY PART! A friend told me that he was quite amazed that I can live without buying things a girl normally buys, like make up or clothes, I can only answer that I’m not really satisfied buying them, and I go with things that can make me happy rather than things that are not really me. DBSK can satisfy me, they can make me happy, and they can make me feel beautiful.
Lastly, I became a better person because of DBSK. There are no traces of that mean girl I used to be. I can say that I did change; DBSK and CASSIOPEIA taught me how to be humble, ALWAYS, that not all achievements should be brag, the boys received a lot of award but they didn’t even dare boast a little about it, I am actually amazed when I noticed it for the first time. I mean, come on! DBSK! Can you just brag something? Just say something about receiving awards! But no, they were actually very humble, feet glued on the ground no matter how high they have made.
As of now, I am enjoying my life full of DBSK, fangirling here and there. I thank God that I entered this fandom. I’m glad I hated DBSK back then, I’m glad my sister teased me about them, I’m glad she downloaded KYHD and made me hate it (I actually love it now ^^) I’m glad she’s so serious about teasing me more and downloaded WHY DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU, and lastly I’m glad I met DBSK.
Together, let’s all keep our faith and wait for their return
that’s all thank you :)))))))
All of this are FATE.
I went to JAPAN for work, living in a studio type apartment. With nothing but a small cabinet, a small bed, and a heater for the winter season.
September 8, 2005 is my birthday , i want to celebrate it and congratulate myself for celebrating my first birthday in japan. But the only money i got is not enough to buy a cake nor any special kind of food.
Because of my cheerful personality I ate a ramen in a small vending stall near takao shrine a 100 yen meal and went to sa small 2nd hand shop. I bought a cd of larc en ciel.
Going to that small shop changed my life.
I was about to leave when the girl i am following bump me. All the cd’s and dvd’s she bought scattered together with my larc en ciel cd.
I helped her to pick it up.
Then i went home. I asked my fellow trainee if i can borrow her player because i want to test if the cd i bought is playing.
She lend me her laptop and then I PLAYED THE SUPPOSED TO BE LARC EN CIEL CD. I WAS SHOCKED TO SEE JAEJOONG JUNSU YUCHUN CHANGMIN AND YUNHO singing TRI-ANGLE !.. In a language i don’t understand. I became a fan just after the 4th note changmin sang.
The following day , i went back to the shop and tell them that i had the wrong content. And the girl who bought it was also there. She is the first BIGEAST fan i befriend. Her name is YUKI MIKASHIMA.
I don’t have the means to finance any concerts they held back in the year 2005 to 2007.. but yes.. i was able to see them in some because my friend (yuki) financed the tickets for me.
My seating would always be too far from them.(it was in some random seat arrangement before and I always picked the farthest)
Whenever a concert ends I would cry. I can’t even manage to buy any light stick back then. I would cry every after any event because I will get back home with nothing but the ticket given to me and all the freebies i can get. I felt that I had nothing compare to YUKI.
Then I decided to stop attending because I don’t have the means. I can’t go to concerts and then reminds me of how are my family eating back in the Philippines. I strive in my craft. Loved my work and persevere to TOP my training and work in JAPAN.
2008 I got an stable job, was able to finance almost every thing that i need. Then i began to buy albums, dvd’s and all the items i can get.
But, march of 2008 I was called to get back to the PHilippines and enroll for my second course by my boss. I was petrified, but i need to get back . At that time, I felt that i am a jinx
2009 to 2010 the death years for me, talks of separation, my friend YUKI became a HOMIN stan. Everyone i met starts to take sides and I was alone. I left the fandom.
News after news, hurtful words, everything kept on spurring. I want to put an stop to it.
Nevertheless, I concentrated in my second course and continue to succeed in my work.
2011 their comeback, I can’t help but to support them again. MAybe because i have never stopped loving them.
And then i started to join groups in the philippines. Because i dont used to socialized with fans anymore from the experienced i got.
Being a jinx never crossed my mind now.
The fact that i met tohoshinki in japan in their golden days.. i am so blessed.. to be able to meet JYJ again last JULY is another blessing.
Now, as i reminisce , as my 8th year of being a fan arrives I want to share to you that we should strive. Despite how cold are the odds we should face it with a THANKFUL AND CHEERFUL heart.
I have not much to share but i thank you for reading my short history of being a fan.
DBSK and I
The story of DBSK and I began back in 2007, when I was a morbidly obese 11 year old. I was going on a trip to the mountains with my parents and they bought me a BRAVO magazine (popular amongst teens in my country). I found nothing interesting in it, except on the last page. A reader was asking: ,,I recently found out about a boy band named DBSK. Who are they?” Followed by a short description of -Asia’s new phenomen- as the editorial called them and a minuscular picture. I was like ,,Ok then” but somehow their name got stuck in my mind for the years to come.
Internet wasn’t really popular back then in my country but in 2009 my parents decided that we can’t go without it already. I was already a big Anime fan since 2003 and I had a big interest in Asian culture. So, in August, same year I just entered ,,Asian music” in the youtube search box. After a little bit of searching I found some songs by Girl’s Generation and Wonder Girls that I liked. But suddenly the name Dong Bang Shin Ki flashed back in my mind. I found about Mirotic and I was listening to it non-stop. I was in love with it but I tought to myself that these guys will never like a girl like me and decided to loose weight. When I went back to school everyone was like ‘WTF? Who is this?? No, it can’t be!’ Suddenly everyone wanted to be my friend but I rejected most of them and kept my old friends instead. So, yeah, Mirotic was my main inspiration to loose weight. I used to dance on it like a monkey for hours and it proved to be useful xD
Unfortunatelly I only listened to 3 TVXQ songs (Mirotic, Love in the Ice and Tri-Angle) mainly because I was lazy but also because it was the beginning of the lawsuit and I didn’t wanted to get too attached to them because most people said it’s the end for them. Somehow, I was more interested in newer Kpop groups (-instert SS501:Because I’m stoooopid)
On December 24th, Christmas Eve, I saw my grandmother from father’s side for the last time. 2 days later she died in hospital. She had diadet for the past 20 years and she also went insane and she was also very violent sometimes. I loved her just as much as I loved my parents and I cried alone, in my room a lot while Love in the Ice was playing silently in the background.
In 2011 HoMin’s comeback came at the right time. KYHD was perfect for me because I felt angry on myself. It was a great stress-reducant and also a great song. But still, I was afraid of searching more about them, and also lazy (-again, insert SS501 song here).
On February 17th, 2012, my father died. He had severe alcohol problems and that’s what killed him. I had severe depression because he let himself go like that and I was angry with myself that I didn’t do anything to help him. I was like that untill August, when I read on a Kpop news site that XY news sites added JYJ as TVXQ members and I was happy that finally something good might happen so I gave TVXQ a try. It was worth it, because few hours later I was already a Cassie and I couldn’t stop from searching and listening more and more. Once I stayed up two nights in a row to watch their concerts, the Banjun dramas, etc. That ‘something good’ that I was expecting didn’t happen then but I was happier because of TVXQ. Their music gave me courage and confidence.
I once showed ‘Bolero’ to my grandpa from fathers side and he said that it’s a good song and said that he hopes that one day I will fulfill the dream of going to Asia and he will watch me from the sky. Few weeks later, on May 18th, this year, he passed away. I was devasted but I was motivated to go for my dream more than ever, for my grandpa. It’s hard now, when I only have my mother and the other grandmother left but that’s it.
Why did I wrote here all my biography? Well, mainly because writing this little essay I discovered that DBSK was an important part of my life, even if I wasn’t conscious of it all the time. I listen to many other Asian artists and I’m also a huge classic Rock/Metal fan but somehow DBSK is the best for me. Those who say that you don’t have personality if a band/group changes your personality are wrong. DBSK didn’t change my personality, they became part of it. I have a hard side, that I show to most people and a soft side, mostly non-existing before 2009. In WBC you’ve probably seen me bitchin’ about how much views on Youtube count, and I’m saying that because I don’t want to keep DBSK just for us, I want everyone to enjoy it! Also, sometimes I post rude comments because I hate seeing delusional people and I’m doing it for their own sake because waking up will hurt.
My future plans that include TVXQ: I don’t have irrealistic dreams like marrying Yoochun or going to the moon with Yunho but on my 18th birthday I plan buying their albums from YesAsia. Also, my mom said that Paris is too far but if they’d come to Prague or Wien, she’d think of it… I am trying to support them in my own way, like spreading their music, defending them against haters and voting for them both relevant and irrelevant places. They gave me lots of happiness and I’m trying to do my best in return because these 5 boys suffered A LOT for Cassiopeia. Right now, I can’t do more for them, but I know that my possibilities will grow as I become an adult. Also, I haven’t celebrated Christmas at all since my grandma died but this year I will make an exception and everyone in the village will find out that DBSK is 10 year old! I am also hoping for the miracle that the boys will reunite one day. The formula of 5 is the one I fell in love with but if they are happier this way then I will be happy too because if they are happy then nothing else matters.
Hello! I’m a Filipino Cassiopeia. ^^ My story about DongBangShinKi/Tohoshinki/TongVfiengXienQi started when I once watched a music video and it was Mirotic way back 2011. Seriously, at first I didn’t like them because I’m not into KPop world yet before, I only know 2ne1 and Wondergirls also actors of different dramas and I hate myself for not likinv them at first. Huhu. So yeah, back to our DBSK. I’ve been loving the color RED even before I got to know them. That was December 2011 I think? All of my stuffs are color red and I didn’t know that that color would have a great significance in my life later. I watched Yoochun’s drama Sungkyungkwan Scandal and he’s so serious and handsome there! OMG! To tell you the truth, I REALLY DON’T KNOW WHY I LOVE THEM. I JUST FOUND MYSELF ONE DAY WATCHING THEIR TV GUESTING. Oh! I remember now!!!! As in when I’m typing this one! I clicked a video on youtube about Idols swallowing Helium gas and they’re included in that video! It was Yoochun at first, then Jaejoong on radio. And then I just found myself watching their videos until the sun greets me good morning! Hahaha. Last year, that’s the time when I really got into KPop and that’s when I found out how boring my life is! How I wasted my life for the past 8 years. Ugh! How come I didn’t know uri DBSK earlier! It makes me feel frustrated whenever I think of that! Earlier this year when I knew that uri DBSK is already disbanded. I really felt sad! The moment I knew that news, I said to myself “I need to protect them” They are so precious to me that I feel like crying now. I know it is impossible for me to know all the things they did in the past but I know I’m able to know all the things they want in the future. I know I’m not their #1 fan cause I just knew them, but I can be their greatest fan today and tomorrow. I know that I won’t be able to tell other Cassiopeia all the things about them but I’m willing to hear things about them from others. I know that I wasn’t there when they felt the pain of being separated but I’ll stay with them until they go back and reunite as DBSK5 again and share the happiness they’ll feel on that moment. I’ll be able to do all those things for I’ll stay with them, as solos, as HoMin or as JYJ or much better as DBSK5, FOREVER.
Oh, I’ll add up something. Earlier today, I’m whining and crying because my parents doesn’t want to give me money for SuperShow 5 Superjunior World Tour Manila. And then I chose not to talk to anyone and rest in my room with some music on. Mirotic began to play and i just found myself singing with them and even dancing few steps. That’s the effect of DBSK with me. I just smiled and began not to think about what happened.
As long as your singing,dancing and living with your dreams.We’ll
always be your proud RED OCEAN.
June 10,2013 I would never forget this day because this is the day
wherein I discover my beloved DBSK.I was reading a certain fanfic
wherein YunJae is the parents of Taemin (I was a Shawol
before).Thei’re love story was so cute that at the middle of the story
my focus turn to YunJae.On that certain and fateful day I started
searching about them. And the rest was history.
After that I joined the group World Bigeast Cassiopeia.I was so
overwhelmed with the members warm welcome.They told me “Welcome to the
FAMILY”. And yes CASSIOPEIA is not a fandom it’s a FAMILY.
Each of the members teach me a lot of lessons in life.Without them
knowing they changed me into a better person.They teach me how to
treasure the things that I have to live with or without.
When I found out their separation I was disappointed but as time goes
by I learn to accept the reality.DBSK is so precious to me that
whatever decisions they make I will still support them.
To Hero Jaejoong,thank you for your existence.The mere fact that I can
see you on my computer screen is priceless.
To U-know Yunho,thank you for being the best leader.You’re the perfect
husband I never had.lol
To Micky Yoochun,thank you Mr.President.Im proud of you whether the
actor or singer Park Yoochun,you always excel on whatever you do.
To Xia Junsu,thank you.Your voice,smile and laughter always made my
To Max Changmin,thank you, your forever be the cute maknae.you make
the word “porn” adorable lol.
To DONG BANG SHIN GI I will always be your proud fangirl.AKTF ^^